Two anxiety meds, that is. Not kids. I realize that this headline was pretty misleading after yesterday’s post about my only child, but I decided to run with it anyway.
A few months ago, I started noticing little bits of my old anxiety creeping in for a visit. The occasional heart palpitation would catch me off guard. I found myself being incredibly short with my daughter, and sort of withdrawing from her a bit. Definitely not ideal, particularly considering that I’m supposed to be savoring every moment of this time with her before I go back to work. (Another topic for another day.)
I’m also tired constantly—to the point that I can fall asleep pretty much anytime, anywhere. That has NEVER been a thing for me. I am a lifelong insomniac and aside from the first trimester of pregnancy, I’ve never been a napper. Not even when I had a newborn at home and I should have been napping.
Then, things really got crazy. The past week or so, my anxiety has been absolutely crippling. I’m way behind on schoolwork—well beyond any concept of “behind” I’ve had since I went back to school. I’m just completely unable to focus on work. All I want to do is lie in bed and stare at mindless things on my phone.
I booked an appointment with my doctor about a month ago when the little bits of anxiety first caught my attention, and finally saw her this morning. I have seriously been counting the days out of desperation because I knew she’d be able to help. I am so grateful that I have a doctor who gets it. We’re the same age (ish) and she has a one year old at home. She’s totally down to earth, and I honestly think I’d love to be friends with her if only she wasn’t my doctor.
We chatted about what’s been happening, and after all of the options were laid out on the table, I told her that I trust her to make the right choice. She decided to add Wellbutrin to my Zoloft regimen. (She’s also looking into some other issues—running routine bloodwork, and looking into sleep apnea as a possibility.)
So tonight, I’ll start taking Wellbutrin. Let’s hope that within 4-6 weeks I’m feeling like myself again. I’ll let you know.