Ten years ago, Catch and I moved into a tiny little triplex apartment with Twix. Twix was about a year old at the time, and she was used to living with our former roommate’s sweet boxer. They were buddies.

The first week after we moved in, we got an anonymous note from a neighbor informing us that our dog was barking all day while we were gone and we needed to do something about it ASAP. Our immediate neighbor was struggling to adjust to life in LA, and one day while she was outside crying on her back porch, she heard Twix crying too. She started talking to Twix and Twix ended up digging a hole under the fence to get to her. That was when we knew for sure that Twix was lonely.


Enter Rolo.

We contacted the local basset hound rescue. Our application was approved, our home visit was conducted, and the next thing we knew, we were on our way to meet “Luke,” a two year old basset who was being housed in a kennel in a vet office.


Roly’s ride home with us after his adoption – 11/2007

I don’t think we could have left him there if we tried. Luke came home with us that day, and almost immediately, he was Rolo.

Rolo came to us with fur stained yellow from his own urine. He had staples lining his belly from a botched neuter surgery. He was a mess, but he was such a love.

The first week we had him, he ate the couch. Then he taught Twix that the trash was actually a delicious hound buffet. If there was trouble to be found those first few weeks, he found it. He taught Twix how to howl and the two of them performed a daily duet while we were gone. We wondered whether we made the wrong decision.


By week 3, Rolo had settled in to his new life, and we knew we could never let him go.

This dog… he’s just a big love.


One of our good friends says that Rolo’s eyes hold the secrets of the universe. I think she’s right.


Yesterday afternoon, we said goodbye to our sweet boy. I feel like I’m broken now. This is not the first time I’ve said goodbye to a beloved pet, but it was different this time. It was different with this dog… our Roly.

Last night, we clung to each other sobbing and begging to just have our boy back. We need him. We don’t feel whole without him. How can we have a Twix and not have a Rolo? They are a pair.

I am gutted. This loss is a physical pain. When I woke up this morning, all I wanted was to go back to sleep because it doesn’t hurt when I’m asleep. I keep trying to tell myself that the pain is love. It’s all just love. The pain means that we loved that little dog as much as we are humanly capable of loving.

We have no choice but to continue walking forward into this new normal. We told Charlotte that Roly died. That he isn’t coming home and he’s in our hearts, now. She immediately changed the subject and resumed playing with her chopsticks. I wish it could be that easy for us.


17 thoughts on “Rolo

  1. This is a beautiful story of Rolo’s life with you. He was such a lucky dog to be a part of your family. I’m so very sorry for your loss… I never met him, but reading this got me crying for you. It is always so hard to lose a family member. Sometimes it can actually be harder when it’s a furry family member.

  2. I am so so sorry for your loss. I had to say goodbye to one of my beloved dogs in November and it is still hard today. My heart seizes when I think about him and that he is no longer here. I just keep telling myself that healing from the loss of great loves always takes time and this is no different. Sending love and hugs your way.

  3. I’m so sorry, Molly. This is such a lovely account of Rolo’s entrance into your family – it sounds like he lived a really happy life with you all, and was loved so much. Sending love and strength.

  4. I am so sorry for your loss. We lost our beloved dog of 10 years a little over a year ago and there are still so many moments where I miss him immensely. I pray that you find peace and comfort and can heal from this loss. (HUGS)

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  6. Oh no, i am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a beloved pet. I remember when we lost my first pet like it was yesterday. They are gone but never forgotten and forever in your heart! The silver lining is that when your hearts are ready, you will be able to find a new pupper in need of a loving home and you will be saving another life. What did we do to deserve such amazing creatures?!
    xxoo, abby

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