It’s a drizzly day here in Los Angeles. The perfect kind of day to spend on the couch in pajamas, but that’s not in the cards for us. I have a big pot of soup on the stove for lunches for the week, and in a little while we’re headed out into the land of open houses…
Because apparently, we’re having a baby girl. For real. And we’re going to need a place to put her.
Friday’s ultrasound was transformative for me. It wasn’t the greatest experience from a procedural standpoint… They didn’t let me see anything until they were done, which was pretty anxiety-inducing and disappointing. Plus, she was pushing so hard on my belly for so long that I was really hurting. But regardless, we got to see our baby. The tech did pause for a moment halfway through to let us watch as our baby girl sucked her thumb. It’s amazing to see our little bundle of cells looking and acting like a baby. Even the tech watched with a smile on her face and said that no matter how many times she sees it, it never gets old.
Suddenly, I feel so much more connected to this pregnancy. It’s like a switch was flipped. I had been talking in ifs for so long that both Catch and my mom had run out of patience. They both gave me an earful on separate occasions last week, and I was beginning to feel like I’d never be able to see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I can see it now, though. It’s magical.
After our ultrasound, Catch and I took a deep breath and walked into Babies R Us. Our first foray into the world of baby “stuff.” We looked at everything from onesies to gliders to strollers and sort of stared in awe at the strange world in front of us.
We had intended to buy a cute little outfit to commemorate the occasion, and instead left with a chair for the nursery we don’t even have yet. How’s that for jumping in head first? I had been sitting in a little grey glider that I totally fell in love with–it was exactly what I’ve been looking for. I took a picture of the sign so we’d remember it later on and we moved on through the store. Then, all of a sudden, I was staring at my exact favorite chair in perfect condition with a big red clearance sticker on it. Someone had just returned it. The sales guy said that NEVER happens, and we took it as a sign that it was meant to be. So I got our chair and saved over $100 on it.
Anyway, point being that I feel like I’ve turned a corner since Friday. We are so ridiculously excited about our baby girl. We would have been happy either way, but it feels pretty good to know that we’ve been right all along about what’s cooking in there. Plus, now we get to name her after two amazing women who we adore, and that feels like another wonderful little gift.
We celebrated our news over pizza and (pink) strawberry cupcakes with my parents, who are thrilled despite their desire for a boy. Catch’s parents have been team girl since the beginning, so my MIL is just thrilled that now she can go shopping for girly things. (God save us!)
Now, we just wait on the results of the scan, but I am choosing to believe that we have nothing to worry about. After all these weeks of endless worry, it’s time to let it go.