Killing Time

I am trying to kill some time while I sit here waiting for the results of Beta #2. Let me tell you a little bit about my day so far:

  1. First thing this morning, I got to pay $250 for the pleasure of having my lab work done.
  2. Second thing this morning, I got to pay another $250 for a one month supply of progesterone.
  3. We are attending a wedding on Saturday night. I bought a black dress with a few gold sequins on it—just enough to give it some sparkle. I figured it’s perfect because it can double as my dress for my company’s holiday party next month. Then I learned that the wedding is actually at noon. I cannot wear a black dress with gold sequins to a noon wedding. I really need to find another dress, except—see items 1 & 2 above—it’s not really the best time for shopping. Sigh. How do I have no fall/winter daytime dresses? Everything that fits since I lost weight is a spring/summer dress or an evening dress. Damn it. The last fall wedding I attended was my own, and I certainly can’t wear that
  4. I don’t think this blog post is going to kill the next 4 hours of my beta wait. Disappointing.
  5. I feel absolutely fine. No pregnancy symptoms beyond the very mild cramps I’ve had intermittently for the past week(ish). No sore boobs. No nausea. I’m not even peeing more than usual. I wish I could just sit here and appreciate that I feel perfectly fine instead of questioning whether it means something. I suspect that I’ll feel better once the vampires give me a status on that blood.
  6. That said, I’m a tiny bit anxious about today’s beta, but nowhere near the level of anxious that I was on Monday. For the first time in a very long time, I have a feeling that everything is going to be okay. When have you ever heard me say that? (I am knocking on SO MUCH wood right now.  So much.)
  7. I am completely ashamed of how many pictures of pregnancy tests I have on my cell phone. I haven’t taken one since Monday, but man… if someone were to pick up my phone and start flipping through photos, they would think I need psychiatric help. They might not be wrong, actually.  I can’t seem to bring myself to delete them.  Help.

I hope you’re all having a wonderful day. I cannot thank you enough for your well wishes and support. Your comments have a way of calming me down when no one else can. Maybe because I know that you know. I am sending abundant wishes for patience, endurance, and peace to all of you.

17 thoughts on “Killing Time

  1. I so hope you find more things to add to your list, because you are likely right that this post isn’t going to kill 4 more hours of waiting! Maybe try finding a dress online that’s a good deal – that could kill some time and sort out your dress problem at the same time?

    • It’s funny because in the process of writing about my dress dilemma, I remembered the dress that one of my best friends wore to my wedding. I am totally hoping she still has it so I can borrow it, because I think it would be perfect. I actually did a bit of browsing online earlier, but everything I found that I like I’d have to pay a fortune to get it here in time to make sure it fits and such for Saturday. We’ve had the invitation on our fridge for over a month. I cannot believe I didn’t read the damn thing!

  2. I’m disappointed that I just noticed you only posted this like 10 mins ago so I still have to wait another 4 hours to find out what your beta is! Wtf!? 😉 I can’t wait! I have to live my prego dream vicariously through my BFP blogger sisters!

  3. I didn’t get an increase in peeing until now heading into the third trimester, but I always stayed quite hydrated and peed a lot. I wouldn’t worry about it. Every body is different. 🙂

    • I am way too self-conscious to be that bold! I’d be stressing about sticking out the whole time! (It’s usually all in my head, but man, my head likes to mess with me!)

  4. I’m a huge fan of Goodwill. And, if you live in/near a big city (I don’t) you can find the Goodwill closest to the snazzy part of town and maybe get lucky with someone’s high end hand-me-downs!But it is a crapshoot, so it could always end up being a waste of time.

  5. Just wear your wedding dress! Just kidding. I wear the same dresses to weddings of people who don’t know each other, and I know how hard it is! I’m also embarrassed about pregnancy test pics on my cell phone. Oh well, they were so necessary at the time!

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